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[17 Nov 2006|03:44pm]
So I don't even know what I am doing, I am just kind of chilling, my phone has no battery charge, and my charger's are with chase cause he is a douche, and didn't leave my car charger like I asked him to.. What a douche bag.. Lol I love you Chico Martinez Walker the 3rd

So yeah, I had a weird day I guess.. I woke up at like 9, and it fucking stinks by my computer... I bought a plethora of clothes and shit yesterday.. New Pants, Shirts, and a pair of boots.. Today I got pictures developed they sucked.. I bought the DaVinci Code on DVD, and ate some lunch.. I bought Porn, and a Pocket Vibrator for sexual use you know.. (wow.. maybe I should be a little more quiet about those things) Oh well... Maybe I will go to sleep or something, who knows not really..

Oh well, I was at Wal-mart from 1-2 or whatever, and I was walking around waiting for my pictures to be developed and well some like 19-20 year old chick named Kelley stopped me and was like "Haven't I seen you in here before?" and I was like "Probably, I am in here all the time for some reason.." and she was like "What did you do, Join the military?" and I was like "How did you know? I enlisted in the Army..." and she was like "Last time I seen you in here you looked a little sloppy, and now you are dressed all Military.. it looks good on you.." and I was like "Thanks.. My name is Paul..." and she was like "Kelley, nice to meet you." It was awkward but kind of funny, I just kind of turned and went my own way...

Well I am hanging out with Friends tonight so I will be out of here for now..

I love you all,
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FUCK [16 Nov 2006|02:52pm]
So yeah I leave for Basic on January 10th, 2007... or military style of date 20070110 cause they are gangsta's like that you know.. anyway I found out where I will be going, and what not and how long I will be at either place, so if you want to scream Gangsta gangsta at the top of your lungs go ahead.. I go to Fort Bennings Georgia for Basic Combat Training, and then I go to Fort Gordon Georgia for Advanced Individual Training.. I will be in Fort Bennings fpr 9 weeks, and then I will be in Fort Gordon for 17 weeks, and 3 days or some shit like that.. w00t yeah..

So recently you know I find it funny how people lie so much, and turn around and act like they did nothing wrong, and try to cover it up with another lie, or try and turn it into a battle of personality flaws.. I don't see things that way, especially when one person has no knowledge of part of it, and brings it up to me, when we never talked about it, and has quote for quote information to lay down right in front of me about the conversation they had, and when I confront the other person they play it off like that person is twisting their words or something... Well why would you bring it up to that person and act as if that person knew anything about it..

I don't know, I just hate when people are so fake to you, when they call you their best friend and then feel the need to fucking lie to you about so much shit.. As a friend all I ask for is honesty, and trust. If you can't be honest then I can't trust you.. what the fuck do you expect? Yeah I love you, but seriously you get hurt because you feel the need to put a wedge between two friends, and try and skull fuck it out of them.. I know what you want, and you don't have to talk to me, cause your heart is anything but pure at this point, all you give a shit about is yourself, just like it's always been, especially when it benefits you..

Oh well, I will be out of here in January, if I come back is another fucking story.. Oh and to the people who I know and love, I will come back for you, but the Drama is behind me, and I am out of my mind for ever letting it take hold of me and control me for any period of time... If I don't say goodbye to you then you have every reason to think that I don't want you in my life...

Later everyone, my rant is over..

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Hey everyone.. [11 Nov 2006|08:29pm]
So it has been a long ass time, and I decided I might make just one more entry before I completely abandon this terror of a site for good..

So here is the news for all who have not heard.. I have joined the Army, and well I go Monday to the MEPS to get my Physical done, and pick a job that I want... I guess I am really excited and then I am kind of depressed about it as well.. It's something I want to do, and innevitably I will do, but something that will pain me, and all of my friends, and family as well..

I guess yeah, anyway so I miss a lot of people I don't really get to talk to anymore, but it's alright, I am sure they miss me too..

I love you all, and if I leave for Basic Training before I get to talk to you I am sorry.

-Paul Albert Lechner
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So I have recently found out a lot of things... [05 Apr 2006|11:03am]
I know I said I would never write on here again, but you know.. if I vent anywhere else, people will see and I will probably get bitched at for no reason as usual. So you see, here is my dilemma, I am stuck in a circle of a bunch of fucking high school bull shit.. Honestly, you figure when people always complain about how they are so mature, and how they should be treated like adults, and then they go off and act like a 5year old on crack with a corn cob shoved up their ass, and you want to be treated like an adult.. well too bad..

First of all, I don't know the exact story of what happened as to from the perpetrators, but I do know the behind the scene details.
Hint1: There was an open window in a house with air conditioning (which this window hasn't been opened in like a year and a half)
Hint2: Ashes were on the window sill.
Hint3: The only person that we know of that smokes that isn't Mom or Dad is Katie..
Hint4: When subject was brought up to Katie (No mention of Chase on my behalf mind you) She brought Chase into it, and acted as if I DID something, when all I asked was what happened, and if she or Amber got in trouble..
Hint5: She tells MY girlfriend stuff that isn't supposed to be shared with me, which leads me to believe another story that is reasonably believed, cause apparently I would get really pissed off if I knew the truth..
Hint6(and final hint): I happen to know things, based around all this information which makes me want to slap certain people, and tell them if they think they are my friends, and want to lie and feed me bullshit, that they can think twice about that consideration..

Now here is how I see it.. I think that Amber was the one smoking, and that Katie didn't even try to talk her out of it. I think that Amber got the cigarette from Katie, who got it from Mom, because apparently mom offered her one.. (She didn't happen to say if she accepted it or not) Now here is where it gets tricky, if it was Amber that smoked, than it must mean she is stressed out, and used the excuse of "Smoking relieves Stress" well in that case, people are just as ignorant as I believe.. You see what I don't get, and why I am pissed off at all in this whole situation is the fact that Mom told Chase like a month after I started hanging out there, that if she ever found out that I gave any sort of cigarette, or marijuana(which I don't do anyway) that I wouldn't ever be allowed over again, then knowing damn well that Katie smokes, and that she is a much greater influence on Amber than anyone at this point is, gave Katie the offer to smoke.. Well that is fucked up in the sense that I have never offered any of us kids anything, I have never been like "Let's get drunk" or "Let's smoke some pot" or "Here is a cigarette" you know, because I have more respect for them than that, and then this shit turns around, Amber & Katie are both off the hook for something much worse than what I could have done.. NOT to mention Katie and her friends started Amber and Chase up on drinking, and yet I AM THE BAD GUY for asking a fucking question about what I heard about.. and yeah so Chase called Katie a Cunt, big fucking whoop, I mean it's not like she doesn't set herself up for it sometimes, I mean she sends off all these mixed signals and knows she does it, then drops people like a bad habit and then wonders why people get pissed off at her.. So you know what, get over it.. It's childish, and if you can't handle the name calling, then why don't you quit doing it behind their backs.. Cause countless times have I heard you and Amber sit back and call Chase an asshole, and a prick, and then 20 minutes later he comes out of his room or we go to the house and you see him and run up to him and say "CHASEY!!" well you know that's just as bad..

I don't really care cause if I think he is being a prick or an asshole, I tell him straight up, because he does the same thing for me.. Cause we nigga's keep it real! XD (had to lighten the mood) Anyway, you have to see that the world doesn't revolve around you, and not everyone has to give two shits about you.. Life goes on, and if you can't handle it then stop starting the drama.. Shit you are very immature, and if you want to act like your not, then you have a lot of growing up to do.

I am not taking sides, this is my seperate point of view for how I see this, and how I am pissed that one Katie dragged me into this with Amanda, and how she told Amanda that I needed to apologize for whatever the fuck it is that I did (By the way, I just asked Katie during 2nd hour yesterday... If she or Amber got in any trouble for the Ashes! How does that insight anything about "It doesn't matter anyway I am not talking to him ever again!" and I replied "I didn't mention Chase at all" and she got all pissed off, and said "Well I don't feel like talking about this anyway!" and then I said fine, and started a conversation with the other Paul in my class, and she was like "It's all fucking stupid, and it's not that I don't want to talk about this, it's just that I can't... "... Conversation was ended two minutes ago... -.- let it go.. if you say you don't want to talk about something, then stop bringing it up!) I just get pissed off about this because I had nothing to do with what Chase said about Katie, or what she says about him, or to him, or anything. I asked a simple question, and like always someone turns it into something totally different.. If I wanted you to beat around the bush, I would of been like "what the fuck is all this about?" but no.. I asked a simple, straight to the point question that should of had no interuption in getting to the point.. Of course it doesn't turn out that way, she makes me look like an asshole to my girlfriend by making it sound like I did something wrong.. Cause on the bus home yesterday Amanda said to me "Well you two need to Apologize for what you said to Katie" Hold up, I asked a question, that was in no way possible to offend anyone.. Amanda then said "Well then whatever Chase said, cause she was all pissed off with the two of you..."

I am nearing the end of my rant now, but if anyone looks at this or whatever, then good for you, but you bitch at me at all, and I swear on my life, on my faith in all that I believe and love.. I will make your life so horrible that you will near the act of suicide.. I don't even give a shit about you if you want to make it look like I am the one to blame for any of this shit, you ask me for advice, then don't listen, and want to talk shit about me behind my back (oh and don't act like I don't know what was said cause I do..)

So that being said, good luck with whatever it is your are hoping to accomplish, but next time leave me the fuck out of it..

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Yeah this is my last goodbye... [17 Sep 2005|09:34am]
[ mood | nauseated ]

So yeah, yesterday something happened that makes me want to punch myself in the throat a few good times.. Mom,Chase,Amber, and I were all at Wal-mart yesterday walking around.. Well we were walking down the main isle in Wal-mart when I glance to my left and see two people walking by, and well to be honest I was disappointed to see who it was.. It was Nicole and Candy.. Rachel's Sister, and her sister's girlfriend.. They didn't say anything to me, but I know they seen me none the less, and I am pretty sure had I not been with Chase's mom or what not they would have said something to me..

I never told you people that I was no longer gonna be on here, because personally I figured you'd get the hint sooner or later.. The reason for that is, because Rachel is on here, and reading her thoughts, and what's going on in her life, makes me want to puke.. I'm not trying to be an asshole when I say this, but let me make this clear.. I am a very attached person when I go out with someone, especially someone who has a past that somewhat mingles with my own. I used to be a cutter, and a self abusing little bitch, which I now despise everything about that.. Well So was she, and I let myself get attached. It was never meant to be, and I know that.. I don't regret it half as much as I should, because I lied a little bit, and I feel bad about it.

I wasn't in love, though I did love her.. just not in the way that I was leading myself to believe.. She was a great person, with just as many problems I had.. She wasn't even the worst girlfriend I've ever had, but she let's her problems come before anything, and it generally screws her up.. Like now, I hear she is messing up in school, well that's not good, and I wonder why that is... I mean this year for me I am doing wonderful in school.. I am passing all my classes with A-C's and I am loving my life now..

I have a wonderful girlfriend, and she is probably the greatest thing that has happened to me.. She keeps me motivated in school, and helps me out if I need it.. I don't spill my problems out to her, and yet I do solve them by talking to her.. Laying with her is soo unbelievably comfortable that I just can't imagine not laying next to her and being that comfortable.. In my opinion she has everything that Rachel didn't.. and that is something that makes me happy.. I am not trying to compare them, and I don't really, but I am genuinely happy, and it doesn't come with the consequence of feeling like death is the only way to solve the emptiness I felt when I was away from Rachel.. That was my fault for getting attached to her.. Then having my heart stomped on because I was foolish enough to believe her..

No offense to you Rachel if you read this, really I don't want you to hate me for this, but I need to rant, and stop all of this..

I am sure you and your family has had a few good laughs at my expense, and I'd like to think that's not true.. but I am pretty sure I'd be lying to myself again if I thought that it wasn't true..

Moving on now..

I am happy like I said, and I am going to graduate.. I am also going to be leaving Livejournal... if you want you can leave you comments here, and I'll get them through my e-mail..

I love you all, and I'm sorry that I don't feel that I should be on here anymore..

Paul Albert Lechner

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Chase's house. [31 Jul 2005|11:09am]
Muahaha, I've been here for another week of the summer, it is so much fun here. Better than my house anyway.. No dirty whores running around that is.. I mean other than all of us being camera whore's it's just plain fun.. I am going to be taking my Driving test soon possible 1-2 weeks and hopefully get my liscense and be able to drive to school. Cause I am not riding that fucking bus, I'm not gonna lie.. I am going to be swimming today at the pool with meh family.. Well my family over here, not my other family.. the distant, comforist family bastards that they are.. Chase didn't catch any shit about his tongue, but I catch so much shit for wanting to get my lip pierced twice.. and my tongue, and my ear again.. w00t.. LMFAO

It'll be so pimp.. w00t.

Well umm I am gonna go help clean up a little bit..

Paulito, teh Jester el Domination III
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[24 Jul 2005|09:39pm]
»I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I asked if you liked me:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
» I got into a fight and you were there:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you [in relation to me]?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me [platonic or otherwise]?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you do me [just to add some class]?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out about me?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I [if at all]?
[17] Give me a NEW nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression of me?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me if you could?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't [will you ever]?
[31] Do you think I would/could kill someone?
[32] Are you going to repost this and see what I say about you?
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The world and it's all seeing eye.. [23 Jul 2005|02:09pm]
Sometimes a momment will pass you by, when you have the oppurtunity to look death straight in the eye. Though it is at these times when your life should mean the most. Families are lost, friends have no hope, and your life seems to be meaningless until you find what you have been looking for. For all the condolenses and all the times you've spent together, this one momment where you look in death's eyes will be the final countdown to a reincarnated self being. Open you eyes is all I am saying, prey witness to the glory that is death, remember that the time you have spent with the ones you love is the time that will mean the most when push comes to shove.

I know I cannot say this to you, directly but this is my message that I hope you will recieve, because I cannot stress this anymore to you, that I will always be here, in one shape, form, or thought of expression. I hope you see this, and I hope you know that I still care. Please never forget me.

No, this is not a suicide letter, or my final vows this is my way of saying I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope this makes everything better.

Paul Albert Lechner
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[21 Jul 2005|04:13pm]
Alright, so now'a'days I am just kind of like.. Hey I got new clothes.. XD It matters not to me.. but oh well.. I needed some and I got them.. they are pimp too.. It's pretty funny.. Hopefully I am the only one who will do this.. but more than likely not, since I hate being a trend starter.. It pisses me off. I get to go again next week.. It'd be nice if they had more of the clothes that I wanted.

Well I am gonna go now..

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Placating the mentalities of death without murder [19 Jul 2005|09:05pm]
So far my eyebrow has healed beautifully, it's great.. it looks awesome.. I have given up my heart.. it no longer exists.. I mean yeah for my friends it will always be open to them, but I refuse to let it be broken.. I can't feel that bad again, I refuse it, and that's just that.

I am hopefully going to be starting a new story soon, nothing perverted, sick, or anything like that.. well maybe a little of both, but mainly just a comedy story.. It should be well worth the efforts in the end.. if it at least doesn't make someone smile, it will make them wonder "Wow, what's up with this kid?" haha

I have talent, and I know it so don't worry cause I will show you all..


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[16 Jul 2005|10:53pm]

Hey what's the point anyway, the more I try the more I fail, the less I lose the more I'll find that this is my hell.

If anything could take away the pain then let it strike me now because you can't mend a broken heart with thread and needle.. It takes a lot more than that.. I know I've tried.

I have a book to read now.. my mom bought me the 6th Harry Potter book today.. I am happy about that.. I wont have to be on the internet so much now, and I wont have to think about that one thing that I don't want to think about..

I went to a local show tonight.. purposely got hit quite a few times.. my body is battered and bruised, and I am happy about it..


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[15 Jul 2005|01:24pm]
[ mood | Fucked up... ]

Hey.. I haven't updated in awhile.. If anyone of you have a myspace you must go and comment on my pictures... I posted a bunch of new ones.. http://www.myspace.com/phantommunky Go and check it out.. I am one sexy beast. lol.. You can see my new piercing..

Alright.. I am trying to figure everything out in my life right now.. trying to keep everything in proper order but it doesn't seem to work.. Everything is just randomly going on.

This really bothers me, because I mean it's like "AHHHHH!!!!!!! WTF!!!" and well yeah..

I just need to get over it.. because in all honesty it doesn't look like things are going to get better, or fix themselves.. and I can't do anything to change it because then I fuck everything else up for everyone else.. and I can't live knowing it's my fault.. God I hate this.. I hate this so fucking much..

Certainly there must be something to make me feel better, but right now there's just not.. No one calls to come hang out or anything it bothers me... I need to get ahold of Tiffany, see if she wants to hang out or something sometime.. I'll give TJ a call so I can get her number.. maybe hanging out with her and Hiro will make me feel better.. Her son has the coolest fucking eyes in the world.. they are like mine just 50x sexier he is gonna be such a pimp when he get's older.. (He's a year and a half old)

Well I am gonna head out now.. I don't want wanna be here anymore.

Paul Albert Lechner

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[09 Jul 2005|09:58pm]
Finally got my eyebrow pierced after a year.. It's about damn time.. It looks pimp as shit w00t..

That's all I really have to say.. I'll post pictures of it when I get some..

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[08 Jul 2005|05:21am]
[ mood | Undecided ]

Hey I am at Justen's right now, I really can't sleep I've ben sitting up for like 5 hours alone now.. it's really fucking boring.. I really wish I was a little happier today.. I haven't went to get those piercings done yet.. I think it is turning into last years birthday too, not really sure, and I hope not because that would piss me off. My parents didn't get me anything, but if I am lucky I might be able to talk them into a warped ticket, and Chase can get one too... Then Justen then we can all 3 go to warped, and watch me get fucked up in a pit.. w00t that would be awesome..

Today isn't so bad, my dad agreed to the 3 piercings.. though he doesn't really like the idea of a snakebite but it's not up to him is it.. He keeps insisting upon JROTC but Colonel, and 1st Sgt aren't there this year it wont be the same, and this has always been my planned year off for the program.. So I can do what I want, and be what I need to be..

One thing really destroys me today, and you all already know what that is.. and I know you are sick of hearing about it.. and I am sick of talking about it because it really does bother me.. not to mention my so called friends being jackasses behind my back.. that hurts... a lot.. -.-; I know that the person gave an explanation, but it's still a little fucked up.. you have to admit.. it's a totally different situation, and you know it..

So I watched Malibu's most wanted like an hour and a half ago, and I am downloading a shit load of songs.. and videos, and Justen doesn't really care.. He said "Just no Porn..." So no porn XD Just everything but porn XD lol.. Just music for me.. and people doing stupid stuff.

I guess I am gonna get out of here..

I'll post pics of my piercings when I get them done..

Paul Albert Lechner

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WAKE UP GOD DAMNIT WAKE UP!! [02 Jul 2005|10:48pm]
Wow, everytime I look at the clock only seconds have passed why does this seem to take so long for me to move on? Why exactly did I let myself get this far into something that now I can't handle it? It makes no sense.. this is what I wanted and now that I have it I can't even cherish it because I can't really have it.. This is so fucked.. I hate this so much.. and really it's killing me inside.. I am making pictures on my little picture making device, and yet they all remind me of the one thing that if I think of I want to burst into tears... it's driving me nuts.. Why can't I just go crazy and let myself go? I mean does it make that much difference anymore.. who really cares anyway... Apparently my wonderful parents just care so much.. all they care about is theirselves, and what the public thinks of me.. Though if I have a personal problem they ignore me until they think it's gone.. It's interesting how I haven't gotten any cards, or anything at all for that matter from family.. It is kind of discouraging how little I mean to this family anymore, and now that I think about it.. I am lost in my own mess and now I can't get out..

I wish I could just go to sleep and find a happy place in my dreams, but last night was a really depressing dream, and when I woke up I was 2x worse than when I remember falling asleep.. It's sad when you still know your depressed when you are having a dream..

I don't really remember if I get this way for all my birthdays because last year I think my parents took me and Paige to get me some snorkle gear, and 2 CD's Paige bought me one of them.. That was APC - Thirteenth Step I bought Slipknot - Subliminal Verses Vol 3, then I was supposed to get my eyebrow done, but that didn't happen because the place was closed.. Then we went out ot eat at Sunny's but Paige is a vegetarian I felt bad about it.. So that birthday virtually sucked..

Well I am going to go now..

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[02 Jul 2005|12:50pm]
5 days until I am 18, why does that not just make me feel any better.. I am literally stuck in the asshole of life.. It's just so shitty here you can't even bare to think about it..

I fucking hate this.. Seriously. This is going to be the worst birthday I've ever had.. mainly because the one thing I want I can't have.. It is just crazy how much hell this is causing me.. The only actual good thoughts I am having are of fireworks and playing with my nephew.. The rest are about as shitty, as the rest of this place..

Thanks for taking away someone that meant so much to me, I really appreciate your concerns.. but next time don't mind just stepping out of the situation and letting it take it's own track..

Sorry I mean it's not much of my home life that has been faltered it was just something that made my home life seem a little less dramatic.. Now it's just another hell that I can relive..

I don't mean to complain in here, but what's the point. This is MY journal, and I do have the right to put whatever I feel like putting in here right? Well in that case.. I thank you guys for listening to me.. it really means a lot..

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[30 Jun 2005|07:55pm]
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Yay my retarded ass pictures rule!!! Because I am a hapless romantic, with nothing better to do than to make corny pictures about love.. >.
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Hi, life is for losers.. [28 Jun 2005|02:28pm]
Have you ever known absolution of something that you'd never see? Have you ever been so afraid of something that no one can understand why you are afraid of this thing, and yet as afraid of it as you are you throw yourself face first into it, hoping that everything will turn out right.. If you understand what I mean by this, then I commend you for going through what I am going through now..

It's really sad though because I am 18 and I have had this dream of being with someone I love for as long as I can remember, and the oppurtunities are there, and yet I can't give myself the things I want.. People stand in my way, and these people are too much of a big thing to go around all the time.. I am willing to cut myself down in order to be happy, but the sacrafice seems almost as risky as playing russian roulette with a loaded gun..

I can hear the deafening roar just before my life goes blank, and still sit there and be able to wonder what could of been.. Is this what life is, me wondering what could of been? Because if it is, then I am sorry to all who I have failed, because I am not strong enough to go through what you do.

Yours Truly,
Paul Albert Lechner
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[27 Jun 2005|04:29pm]
[ mood | Strangely seductive ]

Poetry... or lyrics not sure..

It seems forever since we've talked,
Each passing momment I feel you've forgot.
Something short of breath holds me here,
With a dying ember, I'll succomb to my fears.
And now as the fire burns out,
My eyes are lost without what once was held.

Soul forgotten with my words,
Losing what once was held by my tears.
Falling for that simplicity of a four letter word.
Here I go again, forever never for my sin.

With the drop of rain, hailed from tears.
The wail of death is no surprise,
For with one last ounce of strength I'll surmise,
My fears are tested with the final breath of love.
And lost with the verdict that is spelled in my blood.

Soul forgotten with my words,
Losing what once was held by my tears.
Falling for that simplicity of a four letter word.
Here I go again, forever never for my sin.

You've left me here with all my fears,

and I wont let time pass me by.
(and I wont let time pass me by)
and I wont let time pass me by!
[And I wont let time pass me by.....]

Sollitude ends and I'm here to stay.
I've given all my thoughts to this,
Now it's my life that's proven to be lost.
Forever, Never, For my sin.

Soul forgotten with my words,
Losing what once was held by my tears.
Falling for that simplicity of a four letter word.
Here I go again, forever never for my sin.

Now that this is done,
I'll let my tears flow, as I'm lost again.
This will be my final breakdown,
For this is my last mistake..

By: Paul Albert Lechner

Wow, that came out better than I thought it would... I like them..

Tell me what you think you mother fuckers!

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