I know I said I would never write on here again, but you know.. if I vent anywhere else, people will see and I will probably get bitched at for no reason as usual. So you see, here is my dilemma, I am stuck in a circle of a bunch of fucking high school bull shit.. Honestly, you figure when people always complain about how they are so mature, and how they should be treated like adults, and then they go off and act like a 5year old on crack with a corn cob shoved up their ass, and you want to be treated like an adult.. well too bad..
First of all, I don't know the exact story of what happened as to from the perpetrators, but I do know the behind the scene details.
Hint1: There was an open window in a house with air conditioning (which this window hasn't been opened in like a year and a half)
Hint2: Ashes were on the window sill.
Hint3: The only person that we know of that smokes that isn't Mom or Dad is Katie..
Hint4: When subject was brought up to Katie (No mention of Chase on my behalf mind you) She brought Chase into it, and acted as if I DID something, when all I asked was what happened, and if she or Amber got in trouble..
Hint5: She tells MY girlfriend stuff that isn't supposed to be shared with me, which leads me to believe another story that is reasonably believed, cause apparently I would get really pissed off if I knew the truth..
Hint6(and final hint): I happen to know things, based around all this information which makes me want to slap certain people, and tell them if they think they are my friends, and want to lie and feed me bullshit, that they can think twice about that consideration..
Now here is how I see it.. I think that Amber was the one smoking, and that Katie didn't even try to talk her out of it. I think that Amber got the cigarette from Katie, who got it from Mom, because apparently mom offered her one.. (She didn't happen to say if she accepted it or not) Now here is where it gets tricky, if it was Amber that smoked, than it must mean she is stressed out, and used the excuse of "Smoking relieves Stress" well in that case, people are just as ignorant as I believe.. You see what I don't get, and why I am pissed off at all in this whole situation is the fact that Mom told Chase like a month after I started hanging out there, that if she ever found out that I gave any sort of cigarette, or marijuana(which I don't do anyway) that I wouldn't ever be allowed over again, then knowing damn well that Katie smokes, and that she is a much greater influence on Amber than anyone at this point is, gave Katie the offer to smoke.. Well that is fucked up in the sense that I have never offered any of us kids anything, I have never been like "Let's get drunk" or "Let's smoke some pot" or "Here is a cigarette" you know, because I have more respect for them than that, and then this shit turns around, Amber & Katie are both off the hook for something much worse than what I could have done.. NOT to mention Katie and her friends started Amber and Chase up on drinking, and yet I AM THE BAD GUY for asking a fucking question about what I heard about.. and yeah so Chase called Katie a Cunt, big fucking whoop, I mean it's not like she doesn't set herself up for it sometimes, I mean she sends off all these mixed signals and knows she does it, then drops people like a bad habit and then wonders why people get pissed off at her.. So you know what, get over it.. It's childish, and if you can't handle the name calling, then why don't you quit doing it behind their backs.. Cause countless times have I heard you and Amber sit back and call Chase an asshole, and a prick, and then 20 minutes later he comes out of his room or we go to the house and you see him and run up to him and say "CHASEY!!" well you know that's just as bad..
I don't really care cause if I think he is being a prick or an asshole, I tell him straight up, because he does the same thing for me.. Cause we nigga's keep it real! XD (had to lighten the mood) Anyway, you have to see that the world doesn't revolve around you, and not everyone has to give two shits about you.. Life goes on, and if you can't handle it then stop starting the drama.. Shit you are very immature, and if you want to act like your not, then you have a lot of growing up to do.
I am not taking sides, this is my seperate point of view for how I see this, and how I am pissed that one Katie dragged me into this with Amanda, and how she told Amanda that I needed to apologize for whatever the fuck it is that I did (By the way, I just asked Katie during 2nd hour yesterday... If she or Amber got in any trouble for the Ashes! How does that insight anything about "It doesn't matter anyway I am not talking to him ever again!" and I replied "I didn't mention Chase at all" and she got all pissed off, and said "Well I don't feel like talking about this anyway!" and then I said fine, and started a conversation with the other Paul in my class, and she was like "It's all fucking stupid, and it's not that I don't want to talk about this, it's just that I can't... "... Conversation was ended two minutes ago... -.- let it go.. if you say you don't want to talk about something, then stop bringing it up!) I just get pissed off about this because I had nothing to do with what Chase said about Katie, or what she says about him, or to him, or anything. I asked a simple question, and like always someone turns it into something totally different.. If I wanted you to beat around the bush, I would of been like "what the fuck is all this about?" but no.. I asked a simple, straight to the point question that should of had no interuption in getting to the point.. Of course it doesn't turn out that way, she makes me look like an asshole to my girlfriend by making it sound like I did something wrong.. Cause on the bus home yesterday Amanda said to me "Well you two need to Apologize for what you said to Katie" Hold up, I asked a question, that was in no way possible to offend anyone.. Amanda then said "Well then whatever Chase said, cause she was all pissed off with the two of you..."
I am nearing the end of my rant now, but if anyone looks at this or whatever, then good for you, but you bitch at me at all, and I swear on my life, on my faith in all that I believe and love.. I will make your life so horrible that you will near the act of suicide.. I don't even give a shit about you if you want to make it look like I am the one to blame for any of this shit, you ask me for advice, then don't listen, and want to talk shit about me behind my back (oh and don't act like I don't know what was said cause I do..)
So that being said, good luck with whatever it is your are hoping to accomplish, but next time leave me the fuck out of it..